Cancer Mom Burden: Coming Full Circle
If I close my eyes, I’m there in the hospital; nerves, pressure, anxiety all mounting. This is what we’ve been building up to. Not just over the last few months but over the last nearly four years.
I wasn’t prepared for the overwhelming nausea that hit me. The same nausea I felt the first time we went to the hospital. This time was different though; this time was hopefully the last time.
March 1, 2018, Sura had her last day of treatment. April 24, 2018, she had her port removed. With desperation, it’s hard not to just hope and pray that we really are DONE. Done isn’t something many cancer patients get to hear so we hold out hope that she’s one of the lucky ones. Having had 2 family members who lost their battle to cancer (totally unrelated types of cancer) is a constant reminder that life is short.
Just four days after having the port removed is Sura’s birthday, April 28th. Over the last few weeks after treatment, before the port was removed, we all felt a sense of anxiety, a sense that this could finally all come to a peaceful end. Blake and I anticipated the outpatient procedure with all the same trepidation and excitement that we felt in the weeks leading up to this same time of year just four years ago.
It seems our family has come full circle and Sura will celebrate her fourth birthday CANCER FREE! I will think of that moment she first came to the world from my womb, the first time I held her, the first time I laid eyes on her and knew she’d be something more than amazing. I will think of this as we commemorate her birthday and know in my heart that she has already been more than amazing, and my strong, beautiful baby girl will start from this day with a new beginning.
I want to thank everyone that has read through this blog series and travelled this journey with us. Your support, outreach, and love has made a world of a difference to our family. Lately, I’ve pulled the reins in on my company and started taking more time to focus on the moments. The moments of laughter. The moments of joy. The play dates and parties and celebrations. Life with Sura, Emma, and Blake is a constant cause for celebration. I can’t wait to see what this next chapter in life holds for this MomBoss and my family!
Questions or comments? Please don’t hesitate to reach out!
Email me at: firstname.lastname@example.org
© Crystal Hollman, Crystal Clear Photography, 2018